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2006-06-19T22:33:00.000+08:00

father's day yesterday!!& i realised that i've not been updating my blog..ahahahax..sch is gg to reopen in a week..gp newspaper article of 20,i've not done..ahahax..& i'm proud of it??
too many shows to watch & too little time to do so..

*i hope my william would come one day too*

2006-05-14T20:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!
for all the things that i've done to upset or disappoint you, i'm sorry..
i hope that from now on, i would be able to bring you joy instead..
love ya lots & lots.. =)

another thing i have to say..i don't know why but i'm begining to stop trusting a certain someone..i sometimes wonder whether it is all true..if it isn't then why are all arrows pointing that way??it's fustrating to see it all..

2006-05-09T20:56:00.000+08:00

lotsa hwk to do..there is accrued & prepaid..teachers are loading us up..'long' weekend ahead
means MORE hwk?!haix..type summary notes..do econs essay..theory for accounts..
anyway,thurs would be sports day..meaning we get half day!!ahahhax..something to look
forward after all..& fri..think we would be going out??eat salad bar at sizzler??not confirm yet..
next sat would be our carnival..haven't bought our raw materials..during break today,we were
thinking of all the 'what ifs'..i don't like it!!i'm just hoping we would be able to sell 100 cups..or else we would use our coupons to buy them all??ahahhaax..

saw him again!! =)

2006-05-07T21:21:00.000+08:00

给你的爱一直很安静来交换你偶尔给的开心
明明是三个人的电影我却始终不能有姓名

2006-05-04T20:18:00.000+08:00

short week of us all..next thurs would be sports day..another short week too..
haven't been studying either..i see ppl starting on their revision & i still haven't
dig out all my stuff!!haix..
anyway,borrow vcd from angela..ahahhax..would be watching it later..more tv..
more slacking time..i'm earning myself a one-way ticket to 'uni'..haix..i need motivation..
i need the drive..i see the importance..but i can't motivate myself to work for it..i can only help
myself??
haix..
i don't like it either..
2nd chance??
words are DEFINITELY cheap these days..

2006-04-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

long weekend for us all..but that means more hwk too..especially gp..i think i'm drowning in
all the notes!!anyway,tmr is cup corn making day again!!we have YET to master the art of making cup corn to die for..keyword is YET..meaning we would be able to achieve it..
so don't look down on us & think that we are only good at fooling around!!
besides class polticis that was a big headache, the week was relatively okay..

2006-04-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

i want it to all end..just like that..i wish it never did started..
i'm feeling the stress now..
'WORDS ARE CHEAP THESE DAYS'
am i supposed to trust whatever i've heard??
if so, you're VERY gulity..
why must everyone be so vicious to each other??

2006-04-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

all i did was to talk 'bout a certain subject..& i got scolded in the end!!
she said "shut up & stop whining!!"
haix..
the recent events has made all of us cranky..it has also stop me from thinking straight..
from differentiating what is right & what is wrong..i do not know who to believe let alone what
to say sometimes..i wish it all didn't start..
who is really at fault?!

2006-04-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

many things to blog about..shall start from the stuff last week to the recent ones..
last week, we stepped down..emotion day for all of us although some may show it more than
others..to all the 2nd SCs, i wanna thank all of you for all the happy times we had together..
when we look back, it would be a fond memory for us all..we also had our lon awaited SC gathering on that day..we found a new 'RI' boy among us!!ahahahax..
before i forget,

NCC HAS OFFICIALLY CHANGED ITS NAME TO SAS
a place where we can meet & gather to share info for special ppl..
Date:mon-fri from 7am-5pm
Venue:04B2

don't ask me what it means..only certain ppl would know..& we are expanding our association..
hopefully, more ppl would join us.. =)

2006-04-10T21:23:00.000+08:00

betrayed..
a violation of trust-especially by a close friend..
who do you turn to when the hurt was caused by that very friend herself??

i must look really dumb..but it's okay, i would pretend to be dumb..hear stories 'bout how
you backstab others & act soooo innoncent in front of them..
someone once asked me why i can tolerate you after knowing what you have done behind
my back..i'm thinking, do i really deserve it??what have i done to make you do all these??
or was it the attention you needed sooo badly??
i wonder.....

2006-04-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

rumors..let bygones be bygones..i promise myself that i wouldn't hold any grudge..
no matter what has been done..
anyway, the only lesson that i feel that we really had today
must be econs..she decided to give us a wake-up call by telling us not many of us pass her
paper..is that a sign??can we, like what me tan said, still be the cream of the crop??

+** Always have a DREAM......**+
+** No matter what comes your way.**+
+** Remember life is what you choose, Not what you hope someday.**+
+** Always have a DREAM.....**+
+** Keep pressing toward the prize.**+
+** Release the past, Embrace tomorrow, let your spirits rise.**+
+** Always have a DREAM....**+
+ ** Inspired by God, And then as He refines the Edges**+"
+** He'll give it back again.**+

2006-04-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

i became an angry little person overnight..
i spend thurs night & the whole of fri fuming..
on sat..i decided to think..
why am i even angry??
because of a rumor??
because it seems like you are the one who started it??
now that i think 'bout it, it might not be you..
it might be someone else..
someone that wants it to look like you who did it..
then i must be stupid to fall for it......

2006-03-30T20:44:00.000+08:00

okay..i have to admit it..
I'M PISSED..
WITH YOU..
it irritates me to hell that you act innoncent..pretend that you don't know anything..act pitiful..
i cannot stand it anymore..then you tell this little bird this little gossip..knowing that this little bird
would go around telling the whole world..
you pretend to not care..then you add spice to the gossip..
things that are not meant to be said..
i was stupid to believe you..
I REALLY HATE IT..

2006-03-25T15:58:00.000+08:00

supposed to be studying now but i decided to take a little break.. =)
this whole week had been hell..sch work, pe, ppl in class..
lots of catching up to do for sch work..miss a/cs lesson last tues..which explains why i feel very lost in class..pe seems okay for once..the normal running & jumping..but it would get worse after common test..the teachers would push us for their award..haix..
ppl in class..hmm..don't wanna talk 'bout it anymore..just that some things may not seem as shallow as it looks..
overall, family..
the push factor for me to go to sch & face them all..i feel that i'm lucky after all..i get what i want most of the time at home..maybe that's why some ppl can't stand me..'cause i'm spoilt??
hmm..

2006-03-18T12:44:00.000+08:00

to that 'someone from 04B2'
i don't know whether to say you are intelligently stupid or plain dumb..why did i say that??hmm..
1st: tHe wAy yOu typE sAys AloT..
2nd: there is only a few ppl in class that would use "can you & your friends PLEASE..."
3rd: the day i didn't come to sch, i can elimnate who came & who didn't..out of this group of ppl, i can only think of a few that are close and would state their opinions to ignatius..
4th: come to think of it, i think you should know that i know who you are..
a word of caution before you have to urge to tag your opinions AGAIN, always believe in karma..
your words obviously shows me who you are..there are only 24 ppl in our class..by elimination, there is only 7 ppl who knows me well enough..
think 'bout it....

2006-03-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

back from bintan for a few days le..think everyone would have a rough idea how it went there..it was great!!the bonding with ppl i would never dream of talking to..the laughter we all had..the long talks..the nonsense we all did together..
during this period of time, i got to see through some ppl..to tell which are the friends worth keeping & making..& which are those that i shouldn't waste time & effort on..certain friendships, once lost can never be
recovered..letting go is the easiest way to ease the pain..besides friendship, there are other things which i've learnt to let go on..the retreat made me look at things at different aspects..i don't think i would be able to look at the same person without thinking of what he/she did to me before..the lies..the scams..the backstabbing..
anyway, the fun part had to be when me, jesmen, angela & intan were gathered in the room..we had lotsa fun doing stupid things although there was only 4 of us..that was the best part when the 4 mad ppl were together..ahahhahax..

2006-03-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

today is a bad day..i broke down..during PE..haix..when i realised i couldn't do my SBJ & IAFA, i broke down..
partially 'cause of that & 'cause of many other factors..friends, life, love??haix..sad & poor me..
but, i wanna thank the ppl who tried to comfort me..angela, intan..thanks a lot for the support & encouragement..although it may seems i'm upset 'bout PE, it's also 'cause of other stuff.. =)
don't worry 'bout me though..i would be fine......

2006-03-08T20:41:00.000+08:00

tmr is officially the last day of sch!!!YEAH!!going bintan on fri, would be on sun..i think i'm the only 1 alighting at tanah merah..which is scary..it would be late at night..& i would be alone..at tanah merah..
anyway, i'm officially sick..it's not a very good feeling..i think it's the air, the food..i don't know..the environment around me??doctor yeo don't wanna give me MC & medicine..haix..make me go sch everyday to meet weird ppl..haix..

2006-03-06T21:13:00.000+08:00

i think the air quality in bartley is really bad!!!i feel like i'm literally breathing all the bad air in!!!& it's affecting not only my health but my mind too!!!starting to feel very paranoid 'bout everything..
anyway, our dearest HT decided to be a nice person & informed my father that i didn't go to sch a few weeks ago without a valid reason..& i think she decided to add in additional spices to brighten his & my day up..i can feel the love she has for all of us!!!argH~
i need rest..
lots of it..
i can't take it anymore!!!
all the bullying..
all the scolding..
all the nagging..
STOP!!

2006-03-04T00:06:00.000+08:00

today was a bad day..everything started out wrong..i got upset early in the morning..sorry to those that i ignored in the morning..wasn't in a mood to talk..then the day decided to get worse for me..
i talked to the discpline teacher & my home tutor..yeah,those who saw me in the VP office,i got a personal counselling..it got a little better on the way to meet intan..we(angela & i)decided to prank call ppl..ahahahax..it was fun till i got bus sick..yeah,i'm a weakling when it comes to bus rides..put me in a bus for more then an hour & i would start complaining..we decided to drink coffee at cartel & talk..'bout 'a' levels..class politics,etc..
anyway,renfeng's bbq..the key event of the day..ahahahax..poor sk got it from us..i pity him..but it was fun~ =)

2006-03-02T20:49:00.000+08:00

according to someone,i'm being stalked by this someone..i finally know how it feels to be stalked..
SCARY is the right word to use!!i need help..from anyone!!save me!!

2006-03-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

i did it for chinese!!never going to see it ever again!!ahahahax..but the process of seeing different expressions on ppl's faces when they received it is horrible..so terrible that i couldn't take it anymore..& break down..haix..
anyway,i admit that i did something i know i should not have done..something that i didn't think would affect
our friendship in the long run..when i told you 'bout it,i never did think 'bout the consequences twice..i was selfish..i was ignorant..i know that i'm in the wrong & i apologise for it..i'm not pleading you to forgive me 'cause i know you wouldn't..i think,i'm the last person you trust now..
i hope that when i talk to you,i wouldn't feel guilty anymore..i hope that when i talk to you,there wouldn't be a wall between us..
i'm sorry..

2006-02-28T20:40:00.000+08:00

would be getting our chinese results tmr..haix..all i'm praying for is at least a C6..after all,my chinese
isn't exactly very good..writing & speaking is really 2 different thing..if i get C6 & above,i would go celebrate..
if not,i would be seeing ms zhou until 5.15 on mon & tues le..i'm hoping the last scenerio would not happen..
we do not have that much time!!
4 weeks to common test!!
36 weeks to 'A' Levels!!
all the stress..
all the pressure..
& yet,my mind has time to stray off to other things that are not related to studies..
concentrate..
focus..

2006-02-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

angela has a new idol!!!ahahahahax..go check out her new idol manx..interesting~
maybe she would start talking like her..ahahahahhax..tmr mux pay careful attention to her & her actions..
maybe it would remind you of someone..
anyway,today was a bad day..
i think i made someone angry..v.angry..
haix..
to that someone:i'm sorry..really~
haix..

2006-02-26T17:14:00.000+08:00

this angela arhx..really don't know what to say le..anyway,was supposed to go to Marina today to support jesmen..didn't go in the end..hope they did our school proud!! =)
went there yesterday to but sombody's 'BMT' shorts & to my surprise, i saw ong jesmen along with his dance group..apparently, they were checking their competitors out..ahahahax..stood there & watch this dance which in my opinion, weird..maybe i don't know how to apperciate the art..ahahahax..
anyway, 4 more weeks to common test!!aahh!!
must do something 'bout that..

2006-02-25T12:03:00.000+08:00

follow up on anglea's post..
i DID NOT msg her 1st..she was gloating at my misfortune of mtg him on the bus..
i WAS NOT excited that he remember me let alone horny..
she's going to get it from me on monday..
make sure she donate all her fortune to H.O.M.E..
ahahahahahax..
=)

2006-02-24T23:15:00.000+08:00

so we went shopping today..like 2 mad aunties..met this weird donation guy that says he earns only $4 a day..we fork out $2.50 each..& anglea is not happy 'bout loosing that amount of money..ahahhaax..anyway,our trip to bintan should be a happy 1..but i have a bad feeling 'bout it..even before the whole thing starts there is a big problem ahead of me..i hope that as the day pass,everything would be okay again..

2006-02-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

disappointed.insulted.betrayed.
only these words can describe how i feel now..

2005-12-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

i did go for the photo shoot with cresencia...but i DID NOT abandon her...more of the other way round...so i spend 2 hours alone...& thinking...me & thinking=bad...ahahahax...i never did have anything good to think 'bout...anyway,didn't go for mtg today...instead, i spend the whole day at home...resting...& ignoring everyone who called me & msg me...unless it was impt...although life is like a race, i feel that most of us spend 3/4 of our time running...i decided to be the other 1/4...& rest...i'm tired..........

2005-11-16T16:51:00.000+08:00

it's over...
an end and a begining...
10 years later...
would we still remember??

2005-11-03T20:34:00.000+08:00

thank you for lying to me...
for creating such beautiful memories & promises...
i would never forget them...
most importantly, i would never forget you...

2005-09-30T22:13:00.000+08:00

being some time since i last updated...many things have happened & half-way through the journey, i got lost...there was no one to lead me through so i had no choice but to fumble...i stumbled & fall...again, there was no one to help me back on my feet except for you...i agree that i've neglected you at times; making you feel left out & speaking without thinking 1st...either way, i thank you for being who you are & for always being there for me no matter what...
trust led me to you & faith allowed me to believe in a better tomorrow...
i trust you the most...

2005-09-23T22:05:00.000+08:00

our heart beat as one...
yet, we have to be seperated...
alas, we grief together...

2005-09-20T21:29:00.000+08:00

everything happened for a reason...

2005-09-18T16:41:00.000+08:00

these 2 days, i finally started on serious revision...think it's the chinese promos that made me do so...do not want to disappoint the teachers & my parents lahx...anyway, i'm begining to slowly understand econs le...it helps reading & staring at the notes after all...most importantly, must stop telling yourself that you don't understand...hmm...i'm hoping that i can at least get a 'ao' pass for it...
our chinese teacher was saying that she has losta confidence in me as long as i do not write out of point for the compo...haix...i wonder what she means by out of point.........

2005-09-14T22:14:00.000+08:00

hmm..3 more weeks to promos...chinese is like on friday & there are soooo many words to learn...everyone seems stress out...see ppl studying everywhere...the stress level is soooo high that it's tough to breathe...anyway, today we had mid-autumn festival...actual day is on sunday, i think...the whole performance is entertaining lahx...ahahahax...everyone did a ggrreaat job!!!think mrs heng called everyone involved to thank them personally... =)

i'm begining to realise and understand...

2005-09-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

i wanna go away...
far, far away...
what does friendship means if it revolves around lies??
i'm trying not to be angry...
i'm trying not to be upset...
i'm trying not to feel hurt...
but i guess, our whole friendship consists of lies...
nothing can erase them...

2005-09-09T22:50:00.000+08:00

so we went to chinese garden today...it was fun...ahahahax...jesmen keeps taking his million photos, as usual...intan looks fascinated with her surroundings...& me, well, i'm just glad that they don't mind coming along... =) i feel like my whole life has been a lie...ask those that i talk to today...they would understand what i mean...i guess, one should never take everything seriously...

2005-09-07T16:32:00.000+08:00

it's the stress...it's making everyone behave weirdly...mood swings...black faces...you name it, i've seen it...i'm just not commenting on it...outside sch, everyone seems different...maybe it's the sch & not the stress...but then again, stress comes from the sch!!!promos, pw, etc...our lives as students is sooo sad...
anyway, today is officially the last day we've to go to sch...3 days of our 'holiday' was spent in sch...everything seems to be piling up...haix...when would our toture end??

2005-09-04T22:30:00.000+08:00

haix...
i'm going to be a 'model' on mid-autumn festival...parading with a lantern...there's a rehersal tmr for that...mrs heng specially called me to tell me 'bout it...problem is : there's accounts too...haix...i don't wanna be the 'model'... *bLeaH*
i slept for nearly 12 hours today...the longest i've slept this year...i'm tired...i need a lot of sleep...& i need my many 'A's & 'AO's...aahh!!!!!!!

2005-09-02T20:17:00.000+08:00

the holidays are here!!!sadly, it's all study & no play...we have to back to sch for the 1st 3 days...then there is project work, chinese 'a' level, etc...this year is going to be a lllooonnngg 1...haix...
went to the airport with ms intan today...it's been a long time since i last talk to her & see her laugh/smile...i realised that everyone around me these days look very gloomy/moody...everyone seems to be in a bad mood that i feel uneasy too...haix...i like that airport...going that makes me happy...i like the air there...i like the view there...ahahahax...i think i'm going nuts...oohh...& there's mid-autumn festival...i think i kinda have to carry the lantern around...meaning parade around with it!!!aahh!!!

2005-08-31T22:17:00.000+08:00

teachers' day is FINALLY over!!!everything went as planned...the teachers praised us...the students love it...the deco was great...ahahahax...everything was great!!!all our hard work has paid off & we can see it on the teachers' faces... =)
sadly, promos is like a month away...saw the timetable today...most of our subjects are spread out except for accounts & econs...we have 1 day which we have no paper...the 1st paper is chinese...aahh!!!haix...i'm hoping that i can at least pass chinese...for the other subjects, all i can do is to pray that it wouldn't be tough & to study studying like mad...& i found out something interesting today...shall not say what it is but continue to observe...i cannot believe it but sadly, it happened...haix...
btw cresencia, get well soon yeah??take care baBy~ =)

2005-08-28T11:06:00.000+08:00

i've to hand in many stuff tmr but i still haven't started on any...the most impt being the invitation card for the teachers...i was thinking, maybe i should just draw on 1 big sheet of paper as an invitation to all teachers...after all, they would throw the card away in the end...no point in killing soooo many trees...besides, it's obvious that they have to some for the celebration...
yesterday's rehersal was much better than fridays'...at least everything was in order & i know what i'm going to be doing on the actual day...ahahax...we're having another dry run on tues...my heart goes out to the performers...they keep practising & practising...i hope everything goes well on the actual day... =)
oohh...& i've a new craving...starwberry cheesecake!!!the 1 from thomson area...shunfu mkt if i'm not wrong...if anyone happens to past by that area, must remeber to try...it's really good!!!

2005-08-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

i feel like i haven't ate a good meal since last week...looking at what intan eats everyday, i feel worse...ahahax...but i've been through worse lahx...this is nothing... =)
lots of hwk, tests, tasks, etc...all not completed...the teachers are chasing but the work is never ending...i'm begining to worry as to where i would be next year...haix...anyway, teachers' day is next week & we haven't had a rehersal yet...everything seems half-way done...we're running out of time & our two rehersals are cut short to one...let's hope for the sake of everyone that this 1 rehersal would run well...
i'm someone that i do not want to be...
i ask for something that cannot be given...
i long for someone that cannot be found...
i wish for a miracle...

2005-08-21T20:34:00.000+08:00

i found all my notes le...it didn't disappeared after all...so i started on marketing & whatever ms gan taught just keep flowing...hmm...if only i can remember it all for promos...i'm lost in accounts...all the terms seem soooo 'accounts'...ahahahax...i'm swimming in company accounts...& there's a test tmr...bLeaH~
i watched the repeat if project superstar...sad lahx...i don't think junyang should be out...he got the looks & the voice...but if he was in, kelly wouldn't get a chance le...during the results part, i saw true friendship between the contestants...then i stop & wonder...what 'bout me??would i ever find a true friend that would stand by me??encourage me??hmm...friendship...

2005-08-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

supposed to go the museum today...but we didn't & ended up watching a movie...outside cini, there was this mtv like roadshow...ahahax...games, dedication...can appear on tv!!!but we didn't lahx...sooo paiseh~
anyway, this particular person wanted to come along at 1st...but was later told not to...he/she still managed to upset my/our whole day...must congrulate that person...i'm not angry or anything...
it's been a long time since i last saw & heard from you...

2005-08-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

You make me believe
You are the one for me it seems
But now, I've found it hard
The way you treated me, it's mean

Each time you were down
I helped you on your feet but then
Just as soon as you were ready too
You leave me on my own again

2005-08-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

busy week but it seems like i've nothing to say 'bout it...i re-did my 2.4 run...wah~ i think my part-time job is to cry...ahahhax...ask intan...she has seen it many times!!!& i don't have to go for lunchtime training anymore!!!ahahax...but i'm still going lahx...kinda used to it le...i know how to 'fight' now...so don't irritate me arhx...ahahaax...
econs...still not enlightened yet...don't think i would ever be...but i'm not giving up...i think i lost my mgt notes on marketing!!the whole chunk of it...the only thing left is the 4ps...haiyo~ how am i going to study like that??anyway, there's sc stuff tmr & pw mgt & lotsa of other stuff to do...
i'm tired...

2005-08-13T20:34:00.000+08:00

council meeting?!only 9 ppl turned up...jon was talking 'bout commitments then...a long talk he gave...but i think it was rather meaningful...next week we're having another meeting...i wonder how many ppl would turn up this time...anyway, me & intan, we decided to vist the ancient relics exhibit next sat after the meeting...jesmen was talking 'bout it & it sounded very interesting...
my battle on econs has just started...i've no one to count on except for myself...i hope i would be able to get an 'A' level pass by then...meaning i've to work like extremely hard...hmm...must start loving econs... =)

2005-08-12T15:43:00.000+08:00

it's time i start on my revision...i just realised that we've like MANY topics to study...& i'm the slower kind of student so while everyone is still slacking, i should start...tmr, i'm going to do econs...from the tys...my book is like very clean lahx...no wonder i flunk econs sooooo badly...then there's accounts...from year 1 until now there are many small in between subjects & lots of theory...this is the only subject that i can get an 'A' level pass...must start polishing that 'A' le...
PW is giving me a headache too...we seem to be very, very, very, very, very far away from the rest of the groups...we haven't contacted our companies...we haven't confirmed our gpp...we haven't answered the questions that mrs wan & mr raj mentioned...haix...
yeah, & i still have mgt...
aahh!!!

2005-08-10T20:16:00.000+08:00

hAppIneSs iS wHeN yOu meT tHe riGhT maN aT tHe riGht TimE...
saDnesS is WheN yOu mEt tHe RigHt mAn at thE wRonG tiMe...

2005-08-09T22:05:00.000+08:00

change of plans for tomorrow...we're not going sentosa after all...so much 'bout the sand & the sun...but we're going to fly kite at marina!!!& sing!!!ahahax...
did you see the fireworks today??
did you make a wish on them??
if it comes true, must remember me arhx...ahahahax....
after all, i was the one who said it...

2005-08-09T15:49:00.000+08:00

if you see fireworks tonight, make a wish on them...
it would come true... =)
yesterday's celebration was a blast...everyone was dancing & singing...even those you don't normally see joined in...& guess what??our kite won the 1st place...ahahahax...so more chocloates for all of us...after the celebration, we went to PS with fizah...never did i see PS sooooo crowded before...from the bottom right to the top!!!btw, i finally found a kite...at the least expected place...ahahhaax...i hope it won't rain tomorrow...we're going sentosa!!!lalala... =)

2005-08-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

should i go to school on monday & face the people??or should i sit at home & reflect??hmm...i've given you a chance; many chances to be exact...but time & again, you let me down by misusing it...people ask why i wouldn't just forgive & forget...how do you expect me to do that when you have two different sides?!i've tried my best but i feel sooo fake around you!!!i guess, we can never be friends...we just have too many misunderstandings that can never subside unless time can go back...

2005-08-06T15:37:00.000+08:00

i'm insulted...very insulted...

2005-08-03T21:15:00.000+08:00

stayed back to do the kite for the celebration on mon...it's been years since i fly a kite...the last time, i was like less than 10 yrs old!!!haiyo~ can't wait to fly the kite...ahahahax...who wants to bring me kite-flying??anyway, today was a short long day...looks like i-tan has a very big problem...(don't worry, woman...you already made a choice)...go for it!!!bLeaH~
buRninG meMorIes Is wHaT i'M leFt wiTh...

2005-08-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

my life is turning for the better all of a sudden...hmm...i realised that if you always think 'bout sadness, you would follow suit & make yourself upset for no reason...from now on, i shall look on the brighter side of life...everything happened for a reason be it good or bad...you can't always stop & think what others feel 'bout you...life can't just stop there & then for you to do your self-reflection...by then, the whole world would have revolved...whatever it is, never let what others say or do affect you emotionally & physically...it's never worth it...i've learned it the hard way...
anyway, written report is due the tmr!!!aahh!!!mrs wan talked to me a lot on friday...that was a signal that parents night wouldn't be good...the teachers today all changed their style of teaching...don't know if anyone noticed it...mrs wan was going around encouraging, pushing us to work faster...it's a good change...i like it... =)

2005-07-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

You know that when I hate you, it is because I love you to a point of passion that unhinges my soul...
That's why I do not hate you anymore...

2005-07-30T13:53:00.000+08:00

parent's night was bad...mrs wan was telling them that i don not have the determination to work hard when exams are around the corner...but she said that i'm above average for accounts...ahahahax...must get an 'A' star for her for promos...hmm...ms gan surprisingly did not request to see my parents...they came & left & only talked to mrs wan...phew~ we had star gazing going on in the carpark...i saw venus & jupiter...cresencia says that venus is the planet of love...ahahhax...anyway, parent's night is the ONLY event i'm going to stay for...if there are another other night events going on in sch, i'm NOT going to stay!!!even if i'm paid like $10 per hour!!!NO WAY!!!
i'm confused...someone, tell me what i should do...
sometimes, while trying to help others, you hurt others unknowingly... =(

2005-07-28T19:11:00.000+08:00

i'm damn tired...i can't seem to walk anymore let alone run...i think this whole life, i ran the most when i enter MI...haix...today is an interesting day but i can't really remember the details...not interestingly fun but interestingly bad...me & intan are going to bring our shower kit tomorrow & bathe!!!i can predict that my bag would be very heavy...ahahahax...i haven't got a good laugh for a lloonngg time...anyone out there, wanna make me laugh??i guess i'm just disillusion...

2005-07-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

tHerE aRe no CoInciDenCes In tHis WorLd, eVerYthInG mEanS soMetHinG...
TheRe aRe soMe pRobLemS whIch i CaN't sOlvE aLonE...
i'M feEliNg loSt agAin...
woUld yOu heLp mE tHiS tiMe oR waLk awAy liKe yOu diD??
i'M diSapPoinTed WitH yOu...
bUt i GuEsS it WoN't afFecT yOu anYmoRe...

diSilLusIonEd

2005-07-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

my phobia of PE is coming back again!!!aahh!!!mr azlan is making us run too much...loose weight too fast...i think by the end of this month, we would all be walking cropse!!!haix...today has been a bad day...i think this whole week has been bad...i hope it would change by tomorrow...anyway, the only places i can go by friday is like my home & school...no where to go in between le...haix...friday is parents meet...the day where most of us would get grounded...ahahahax...doing duty then...i would be going home alone after the whole thing if we have to stay until 9+...haix...who wants to send me home??haix...

2005-07-26T21:39:00.000+08:00

aNd i neVeR tHougHt i'Ll feEl tHis WaY...
buT as FaR as I'm cOnceRneD i'm GlaD i gOt a ChaNce tO saY...
thAt i Do bEliEve i LovE yoU...

2005-07-26T20:10:00.000+08:00

dIsilLusiOneD...
haix...i'm upset...or should i say disillusioned...did you noticed it??well, fizah did...i think she was the most observent of all...& very patient...hmm...she's the only 1 that can actually take my nonsense...others, i think the moment they noticed...they would just scram...literally...i would not hate my life from now on...'cause i know someone out there cares for me after all...i'm glad i found a friend like ya...although you wouldn't be reading this, this post is dedicated to you...ahahahax...you rreeaallyy cheer me up a lot!!! =)

2005-07-25T21:39:00.000+08:00

I HATE YOU!!

2005-07-25T21:09:00.000+08:00

hmm...i think i spoke too much today...shall keep quiet tomorrow...i've irritated quite a few people by being too noisy...haix...life is unfair...i would not think anymore...

2005-07-24T21:17:00.000+08:00

bLeaH~ i still can't believe i went back to sch today to watch the floorball match...that was when i realised that floorball players are very violent...they whack the ball at anything & everything...& i was the victim...so lucky~ i realised i haven't done mgt...haix...& i have to present tmr...too lazy to do le...ahahahhax...watch ch 8 lahx...very funny...can destress...ahahahahx...

2005-07-23T11:27:00.000+08:00

i'm learning a new song...ahahhax...anyone who comes near me is going to suffer...TERRIBLY...muhahahax...
anyway,yesterday we had leadership training...before that, me & intan decided we are from china & india respectively...ask cresencia on how we sound like...she had a really good laugh on listening to us talk 'bout our 'home'...hmm...we played only 2 games...all i remember 'bout this leadership thing is the games...sad ritex??
hmm...i know why intan is my good friend le...'cause we're injured at the same place...ahahahax...okie, very lame...shall go back to my song...
today is a better day... =)

2005-07-22T20:51:00.000+08:00

you've done so much for me...
but i've neglected your presence...
i'm sorry but thanks a lot...

2005-07-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

having a headache now...i hatee my life...i would not get angry...i shall remain calm...& smile...

2005-07-20T20:27:00.000+08:00

ehh...i have the urge to delete my blog...hmm...considering it...to those who never did like what i post, good for you...it's going to disappear soon...but if you do not like it, why do you even bother reading it?!

2005-07-19T17:11:00.000+08:00

so i was bored & decided to create a little story to enetertain myself...ahahahax...
i realised that they all have sad endings...the next time, i do another, i would make it a happy one... =) read on...

2005-07-19T17:01:00.000+08:00

wHen i GaVe yoU my HeaRt, i AskeD foR noThinG iN reTurN...
All i WaNteD frOm yOu wAs acCepTanCe...
whEn yOu ReaLiseD yoU couLdN't gIvE me ThaT, yOu waLkeD aWay qUietLy...
nOt knOwiNg tHat eVerYthiNg haS enDeD thEn, i CoNtinUed gIvInG...
iT wAs whEn i OveRheaRd yoUr cOnveRsatiOn thAt i reAliseD i haVe faLlen iN loVe wiTh yOu...
nOw, i Am leFt to PicK uP thE pieCes iN my LifE thAt bRokE tHe daY yoU leFt...

2005-07-18T21:28:00.000+08:00

i FinAlLy reAliSed tHat i LikEd soMeonE thAt woUld nEveR caRe fOr mE...

2005-07-17T18:47:00.000+08:00

bLeaH~ i never did like seeing doctors...especially chinese kind...i always have a feeling that they are going to use needles & poke me with them...or anything weird & dangerous looking...aahh!!!so paranoid of me!!!& guess what??we bought gold fish!!!ahahahax...hopefully tomorrow would be a better day... =)
baa baa black sheep have you any wool?
yes sir, yes sir, three bags full...
to be continued...ahahahax...

2005-07-17T09:15:00.000+08:00

yesterday must be the most unlucky day i ever had...
started off with my leg & ended with the air-con...what if 1 day, as you're happily sitting down & you want to stand up & get something, and then you reailsed you can't walk properly, what would you do??
i thought it was muscle cramp or something but it isn't!!!whatever it was, it was hurting like hell...
i decided to get some cream & rub on it...by the time i reached the 2nd floor, i was sweating like mad...that was how hard it was to get down...& i was crying like mad...
everything from then on was bad...my air-con decided it shall join in the fun...it literally stopped working at 1.18am...i was like damn pissed by then le...i can't walk, now i can't even sleep in peace...what could get worse then that?!so i had to climb the killer stairs to the spare room...by then i was crying AGAIN...
sometimes, i think that all i can do is cry...i bet 3 quaters of the people i know thinks that way...they're just being nice & do not want to tell me...haix...
yeah...& i haven't seen a doctor & i don't know how i'm going to school tomorrow...haix...

2005-07-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

i feel like today was officially the last day of our papers...ahahahax...econs & mgt is gone case...i don't even know whether i can pass my accounts...haix...anyway,intan waited for my paper to end...we (me,intan,pok & jesmen) went to eat our lunch/dinner...the food is still like a washing machine in my stomach...anyway,jesmen is starting to behave weirdly again...so many days never talk to him but he is still the same...everything around has changed except him...ahahahax...hmm...i hope this change is for the better & not the worse... =)

2005-07-14T21:44:00.000+08:00

blEaH~ i don't like today AT ALL...everyone seems to be going against me... =(
nothing more to say...blEaH~ haix...

2005-07-10T21:04:00.000+08:00

eVen ThOuGh tHe moMenT's goNe,i'M stiLl hoLdiNg oN soMe hOw...
wiShIng i cOulD chaNgE tHe wAy tHe woRld gOes RouNd...

2005-07-03T22:58:00.001+08:00

tomorrow is a holiday!!!i shall sit down & do some serious studying...hmm...went to pulau ubin today...don't ask me what i saw that 'cause i don't think anyone would appericate it...unless you're a nature lover...we walked for miles & miles & the road dosen't seem to end at all...the water there is like brown 'cause it comes from the stream...ahahhax...got bitten by tons of mosquitoes & my right palm was swollen!!!haiyo~ itchy fingers i have to touch everything i see..i've learnt my lessons today...ahahahax...

2005-07-03T22:58:00.000+08:00

2005-07-01T23:02:00.000+08:00

went out with intan,cresencia,xinyi,shujian,ignaitus & sebas...cresencia & xinyi watched intial d & the rest of us watched war of the worlds...i give 5 stars for the content & 3 & a half stars for the movie as a whole...feel very stress watching the movie...there was 1 part that was really sad lahx...nearly cried then...the part where the father was singing for his kid...sooo touching...haiya~ everyone should just go watch it...bought a cake for cresencia 2day...she only ate 1 slice... *sad* don't think i would celebrate for anyone again...it's like the surprise didn't work out...haix...

2005-06-29T20:29:00.000+08:00

was doing the GPP just now...hopefully it's better than the previous 1...hmm...many.many stuff to do but i don't know where to start!!!haix...shall slack today...study tmr...go out on friday & saturday...study some more on sunday & monday...i wanna watch war of the worlds...looks great...who wants to watch with me??ahahahax...

2005-06-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

AAHH!!!!sch is going to start on monday...haix...soooo fast...i feel like i haven't done much for mid-year so i guess the results would be like my 2nd fav colour...RED...hmm...AAHH!!!!

2005-06-23T16:18:00.000+08:00

a LoT oF wOmEn waIt tHeiR wHoLe LivEs fOr soMeoNe tO fEeL tHat GuiLtY...

2005-06-16T11:25:00.000+08:00

aahh!!!yesterday was one of the day i did the most screaming & running...i think we've (me,intan,linda & aisyah) explored the whole of safra le...we were supposed to be having a bbq...then sj & jon decided that it was too 'dry'...so they decided to have a water-bomb game!!!their 1st few targets were the gals...& we were like screaming all the way...trying tom keep ourselves dry...ahahax...then sj told me that actuall,their main target was pok!!!ahahax...i think he ended up being the worst of all of us...the cleaning up was the most horrible part...everywhere was wet & dirty...with muddy footprints everywhere...they have to like check out the next day so we all had to clean up...hmm...overall,the chalet was great!!!ahahax...we should have more of these next time... =)

2005-06-13T17:11:00.000+08:00

today was spring cleaning day...ahahax...i never did soooo much housework in my whole entire life...anyway,me & intan decided that the floor is very dusty & needed some cleaning...but i think it's still very dirty/dusty...like no matter how much we clean.it would never go away...tomorrow is chalet day...hmm...checking in for everyone but i don't think i'm goona stay there for long...we'll see...see if there is any reason for me to stay...ahahax...what am i talking 'bout!!

2005-06-13T17:04:00.000+08:00

You are a perfect princess! You are every queens
dream, amazingly beautiful, a joy for the
spotlight and your dream is to get married and
have a proud royal family. If any paparazzi
come after you, one wink and an innocent smile
is all it takes to dumbfound them. You have an
immense sense of duty and would never go
against the wishes of your family. You spend
your time flicking through magazines looking
for the latest clothes and jewellery. This
doesnt mean youre an airhead though! Behind
your striking appearance lies an amazing mind.
You have the ability to conjure up the wittiest
sayings and are immensely intelligent. Such a
combination of intelligence, creativity, power
and beauty is often intimidating to those
around you.

Which proud princess are you? (Dazzling pics and detailed results!)

2005-06-13T16:57:00.000+08:00

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In your eyes, people see shards of ice
everywhere... You are cold and distant, pushing
away people that love you and truely care for
you! You want to be able to reach out and love
them but... You can't for some reason... You're
just too.... You :P Underneath that cold
exterior lies a warm, happy soul that wants to
let loose and have fun! Your sanctuary would
probably be anywhere up high where you can look
down on life below you, like the roof of an
apartment building... Your eyes resemble a
saddened, crestfallen person seeking out
attention, but doesn't know how to handle it.
However, you do find comfort from your friends,
they're always there for you, and they know the
REAL you :) Even though you do seem rather
cold, you can be very protective over something
you truely believe in or love. Let go of that
"tough" rep and just be you! It's
impossible to live life without some fun and
love ^-^

What Lies Behind Your Eyes?
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2005-06-12T15:57:00.000+08:00

tagboard invasion!!!this unknown person decides to invade my board!!!hmm...but i think i know who you are...there is only 1 weird person that would do that...ahahax...nvm...anyway,tomorrow is the dateline for gpp...i can't seem to log in though...think there is a problem with my laptop...haiz...angela is on a holiday & i think i should do it 'cause i've not been doing much...tomorrow is 'clean the council room day'...fizah isn't coming,people!!!!ahahahax...i never did like spring cleaning...

2005-06-10T10:37:00.000+08:00

dateline for gpp is next mon...i feel like i've not done much for PW...so i'm going to do the gpp...hmm...we've council meeting on mon again...this time,it's to clean up the room & to practise morning duties...the room is rreeaallyy very dusty...there is like 1 layer of dust on the table!!!gave pok his card yesterday...hApPy BeLaTeD b'DaE!!! =) i think i'm getting good at doing b'dae cards...ahahax...at least it's improving...the last 1 who gets my card must be the luckiest...ahahahax...so the council chalet is next week too...from the 14-16...hmm...hope it would be fun!!!

2005-06-07T14:09:00.000+08:00

PROJECT WORK DISCUSSION & PLAYING X-BOX.... =)

2005-06-06T22:09:00.000+08:00

went back to sch today for council meeting & pw...many groups met up today too...saw sebas's group but jesmen wasn't there...heard from them that he went MIA le...ahahax...anyway,council meeting was interesting today...not many people came though...had to discuss the racial harmony day proposal with akbar...after the meeting,we (fizah,me,intan & linda) went to parkway...heard many types of stories...jokes,ghost stories,politics...ahahax...realised that it was intan's 1st time at parkway!!!*woman,how can like that??*today was supposed to be the date where i pray to my grandmother...yupz...didn't go 'cause of council...haiz...been a long time since i did...

2005-06-03T15:59:00.000+08:00

lessons were supposed to start at 9 yesterday but i thought it was 8...aahh!!!so i went to sch like soooo early...went to the library to borrow some mgt books...maths class was really one to one tuition...there was only like 4 of us...so mr lee gave us work to do (as usual) & walked around the class to help around...he tried explaining to me but i don't understand what he's saying...ahahax...after lessons we went swimming...the weather was like damn hot lahz...so we both got really burned...ahahax... =)

2005-06-01T18:56:00.000+08:00

today was supposed to be a long day...end at 2.15...but i didn't go to sch...overslept...ahahax...anyway,yesterday we were going to stay back for project-work discussion...but angela didn't come...so we didn't...my parents came to pick me up & we went to suntec...& guess who i saw there??angela...so smart of her arhz...ahahax...tomorrow still have to go to sch for econs...don't know if we still have maths...mr lee said that he have this course to go to but he's not so sure what time...so it may still be on...i'm crossing my fingers that it is not...

2005-05-30T16:14:00.000+08:00

went back to school today for mgt,pw & accounts...the test for accounts was damn difficult...but we (cresencia & me) still managed to balance it...ahahax...anyway,the pw tingy is really getting on my nerves...it dosen't even help us next time!!!& my group still haven't got any idea on what we're going to do...mrs wan wants to see the group proposal on wed & today is like mon!!!no idea at all!!!haiyo~ this whole week,many of my classmates wouldn't be around...pre-u sem...ahahax...see them lug all their heavy stuff today to school...realised that many ppl think that i'm in pre-u sem...i'm anti-social...i wouldn't like mixing around...ahahahax... =)

2005-05-27T15:05:00.000+08:00

this year sports day was a blast...me & cresencia were supposed to be guarding the gate but we ended up slacking...ahahax...then intan was mr heikal's personal assistance all thanks to me...i volunteered her...ahahax...she seems to like the job though...anyway,last year's sports day...we didn't do anything...just sat around & waited for the time to pass...but this year,team spirit was like 100%...everyone was so enthu...& guess what??ONYX WON!!!ahahax...though i didn't take part...but i'm proud to be in this house...me,cresencia,jesmen,intan & petrina...we're all in the same house...really fated...hahax... =)

2005-05-24T18:59:00.000+08:00

hk...great place,fanastic food,good looking people...couldn't ask for more...hahax...yeah,by now most ppl should have known that i went to hk on thurs...didn't go to school then too...'cause of that,i've to take the listening compre tomorrow...all by myself...haiyo~ hope it wouldn't be that difficult...anyway,bought quite a lot of stuff...think everything i bought,add up together should be around $100+ le...hahax...today was a blasting day...ask shujian & he would tell you how i 'bullied' him...hahax...made them laugh like mad today... =) anyway,i just realised that not many people would read my blog...*sad* haiz...dun know why i even update it...

2005-05-19T13:43:00.000+08:00

life is short so live it to the fullest...hmm...i'm being sentimental all of a sudden...nothing to do at home so i decided to update my blog for the last time before i go MIA...sometimes,unexpected things happened that you have no control over...the only thing you can do is to take it as it is & let it go...we all hope & wish that everyday is a perfect day that we can face...but,no,nothing is perfect in our life...if i get a chance again,i would choose to live in denial where everything was perfect until reality hits...

2005-05-18T12:34:00.000+08:00

okie...everyone thinks i'm mad all of a sudden...'cause of the msn tingy...hahahahaz...cresencia has a very interesting week manz...hahahaz...sad i wouldn't be able to hear & see the rest of her story anymore...shall ask her to update me next week... =) *must update me,woman* there's sports heats today!!!hope it dosen't rain again or else it would be a waste of time for all of us...imagine if it rained on the actual day...then they can't possibly postpone it again ritez??